the reflection through a looking glass

Travelers Reflection
Originally uploaded by J.H.C.

If you could switch places with any member of GTP who would it be and why?

have you ever walked next to someone on the street and wondered what they're thinking? what they're life might be like or how different it might be from your own? i have. i think every one does at some point. it's a very natural impulse. call it curiosity or a deep need to know that you're not the only one who's life sucks so badly.

there were days where i'd pretend i had something much like a looking glass. a little crystal ball that i could look through as i passed people on the street. in my mind i could read your thoughts or actually visually see exactly what you were thinking or take a peek at what goes on behind closed doors. in my mind everyone had a looking glass. a little crystal ball that we could carry everywhere. no one was ever alone. you could trade as you passed each other on the street and exchange lives, if you should choose to, but no one ever did. i had a very over active imagination as you can tell.

i wished i could trade places with the people who's lives i invaded with my crystal ball. i wanted to know what it felt like to be someone else, have different parents and live a completely different life. would my parents be together still? would they both love me? would i have a dog or a cat? a boy or a girl?

i secretly wished it over and over again. i wished i could be someone else so badly that i could cry. i would cry. i've never told anyone that before. i haven't wished i could trade places with anyone in many years, but i remember the feeling. i remember how utterly horrified i was with my life. the day i realized it would always be this way for me and there was nothing i could do about it. it feels painfully lonley.

i think if there was someone i could trade places with it would be...Buckey. He has the coolest fucking hair EVER!

of course if it was truly up to me, i'd be switching places with everyone at will. lol!