the mental mind fuck

Blame Your Green Eyes
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how do you know you're getting mentally screwed? Xx MCRgirl Xx knows...

i was just catching up on a blog here and there when i ran into MCRgirl's post:    i just don't understand..

it was such an interesting subject that i had to write a comment and you know when my comment turns into a post that something touched a nerve!:

my comment:

i'm not about to advise anyone but here's what i found interesting, "time alone and We'll most likely get back together at the end of the week" sounds a bit fishy to me...fishy meaning, he found another fish to play with and is keeping you on the side until he's done. if you do stay together and you found out he was with someone else while he needed "alone time" he could very easily say that you two weren't exactly together at the time.


if you accept this (and by the sound of it you don't)it will lead you down a road of worthless relationships and will most likely continue to be taken advantage of for YEARS to come. people like that think they're smart because they can get into your head. the fact that you've publicly announced that he's fucking with you is proof that he pissed you off and actually gave it a second thought.


if i were you i'd NEVER think about it again. move on and be happy. i know it hurts, i remember, but you know one thing i would never do is let anyone know how hurt i am. i wouldn't even give him the satisfaction of knowing that he so much as pissed me off or that he or anything he did mattered to me at all. that's what i was like when i was your age and as far as i'm concerned it worked out just fine for me. :P by the way, you've got the right idea about not sitting there like a dumbass playing his stupid games. unless his mother died he doesn't need time. man, this comment turned into a book so i'm blogging it down. :P take care!

my thoughts:

people think it's easy to talk about the way you feel on a blog because you're not actually facing anyone. well, it's not easy especially if you don't know how to communicate well and in my honest opinion MCRgirl can do just that. her writing is direct and to the point and spills out of her brain like a colorful flurry of jax on concrete. i loved jax when i was a kid.

now if there is anything i've learned from my very colorful life is that getting into a relationship after having just ended one is usually a very bad idea. people that get into relationships one after the next usually have MAJOR self esteem problems. (did i just admit something?) relationships formed on the fly typicically will not last, likely due to the fact that there was no time taken to properly choose the next candidate up for mate of the year. personally speaking tis better to wait and perhaps date a little, though even then i'd avoid the "rebound" dater as it will usually lead to nowhere's ville right quick.

how can i say things with such certainty? i committed the dreded rebound boyfriend faux pas of the century. in fact, i wasn't even "officially divorced"...to be honest i wasn't exactly dating either. * cough *  WHORE! * cough * here's the thing, when you get together with someone that just got out of a relationship you're taking the chance that you just won't matter; that you're just another stomped on dry leaf while the rebounder treads a previously untrodden path towards self discovery or perhaps worse, another real relationship.

you know what i say? FUCK ALL THAT! stay out of the way, keep clear, danger will robinson DANGER! a rebounder is like running with the bulls in spain, injuries are common, you may be gored, and  trampled underhoof. the rebounder could become disoriented when seperated from the herd and will oftentimes attack the first thing that gets in it's way or any person who has the misfortune to be stuck in it's path. the rebounder could, in it's wake, leave nothing but death, destruction and broken hearts.

so respect the rebounder and the rebounder will respect you... should the rebounder not respect you then feel free to kick it in the balls, but stand back... they kick back.

this important life saving message was brought to you by MAHARET girl gamer extraordinaire.

thank you and have a great day.

Rex Misquoted Twice and Maha's Epiphany

diaper check
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On: Thu, Jun 19, 2008 8:25:57 Rex said:

"Naked bareback horseriding? I'd have to take a pass - I could just imagine all those horse hairs grinding up me arse - no thanks" by DILLIGAF REX on F1-Jet-Sub-Naked horseback riding (WHAT?!?!?!?!)

On: Sun, Jun 22, 2008 3:01:46 PM Rex's Thought for the day quoted Steven R. Covey:

"Live out of your imagination, not your history."

maha said: "hmmm...i don't get it. live out of your imagination...not history.... i don't have the imagination to understand how not to live out my history or what exactly living out my history means. that tinsy little sentence it too complex for my brain. now you did it! i'll have to google the damn answer again."

DILLIGAF REX said: "It basically means: The past is like your ass - it's behind you! If you dwell in the past you will never open yourself up to a better future. ; )"

maha said: "WOW! you put that in the simplest terms that even a retard like me could understand. my past truly IS like my ass. behind me, getting older every day, and a little saggy. sometimes you have fond memories of it, but when you think about it too much just reminds you how fucking horrible it is to think about it all the time. all you know is you want to pretend it doesn't exist! FUCK ME! thanks rex. you totally cleared that up for me. lmfao!!! what's funny is that i really did look it up, but never had the chance to find my answer. what would i do without you? :)"

SO, i'd like to take the time to thank Rex with the above picture. it was actually an accident as i only had the first quote shown there which i had created the day i read his post last week. the second conversation, inspired by our chat about the second quote, seemed to fit really nicely here as well. i can't stop smiling in fact and people are walking by wondering what kind of drugs i'm on... so thanks rex!

all of this lead me to an ephiphany. it seems strange to quote my self but there you have it:

"i don't have the imagination to understand how not to live out my history or what exactly living out my history means." by the mighty maharet - life ponderer

basically, though i've tried to think of ways how "not" to live in the past i find i can't live without living in the past; you see, it's a very fine line for me, one that is always a bit smudged and it's always been a part of who i am. not that it was meant to be understood by anyone but me OR that i even understood my own comment until rex clarified the meaning of his quote.

strange the way the brain works isn't it? and don't you love my double negatives??? i do. i tell you it's an art form unto itself. :P

Bats Misquoted: Queen of Anti-Thin

"Really? Are you kidding me? Who elected her Queen of the Anti-Thin?" Batman Gotham on The blog for thursday

Buckshot's Misquoted Again!

Wordsworth misquoted
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another entry by buckshot george into my very special HALL OF MISQUOTED CLASSIC'S....

Bucky on topic: If you could switch places with another GTPer, which one and why?

"And yes, I have dreamed about what it would be like to be that smooooooth! Don't tell me you haven't! Let me tell you a little story, a few GTP guys were sitting in a Halo lobby, some ladies joined, and Huey simply said "Who wants to play Team Slayyyyyeeerrrr". The women went crazy, and the guys had to leave as we all sounded like Joe Pesci in comparison! The man with the voice that melted a million hearts, was once told by his parents (Barry White and Kathleen Turner) that "with great power, comes great responsibility". Just imagine if it fell into the wrong hands, and Buckshot had the voice of Huey! I think the world would be in grave danger.

I'm not going to lie, I would use the Voice of Huey to drop women's panties across the globe. And the girls here know that Huey can barely get the "H" out of "Hello Ladies" before their underwear is replaced with a wanton desire to jump him til they may jump no more. I would be drunk with that power. And that is why Huey has the voice, and I do not." ~Buckshot George

okay, yeah, that was a long ass quote, but it was my favorite part and it explained the really great line:

"And the girls here know that Huey can barely get the "H" out of "Hello Ladies" before their underwear is replaced with a wanton desire to jump him til they may jump no more. I would be drunk with that power." ~Buckshot George on I'm going to kill a frog

sometimes i really love my life. lmao!

co-op gaming with rigid

Enemy Territory: Quake Wars
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How important is co-op gaming to you in a game you are thinking of buying? What games have done this well and what have done it poorly or needed it but didn't have it?

co-op gaming is an integral part of our relationship. it adds a dimension to it that is probably missing in a lot of other people's relationship. maybe they make up for it in another way, like watching the same movies perhaps or loving the same books. rigid and i don't really agree much when it comes to movies. actually we don't agree much when it comes to anything, but we can agree on a good co-op game....usually.

i'm looking at a couple right now, but i'm still undecided because i know rigid isn't all that keen on those two; army of two and et: quake wars. i haven't demo'd et:qw yet, but for some reason i'm leaning more towards it. it's probably because of my northenders friends, still, i haven't really seen much catch my eye.

to be perfectly honest, co-op isn't quite as important as a good online multiplayer like cod, rb6 or gr. i just got my first gamefly game in the mail yesterday and it was army of two. i wanted to try it out as soon as i could, but my neighbor was there and rigid was making dinner so i decided to show him my dance dance and humiliate myself.

when it came time to try out the army of two rigid simply went into the other room and jumped on his cod4...he didn't even give it a chance and wasn't at all interested in playing with me.

today will be different because when i get home, i'll jump on my ddr for a bit then i'll dance my foot right up his ass and puppeteer him into seeing things my way.

co-op does a body good.

Wild Night With GTPs Finest by Dirtyeffinjimjo

Pick one GTPer to have a wild night. What would the night consist of?

Wow, like the rest of us locals I couldnt pick just one, too hard to make such an important decision. I would need My Sis ofcourse cause shes a goodie goodie and wouldnt know how too handle the debachery to come.Then to start it off right Toadie, Bunny, Cookie, Paintrain, Pitbull666666, Woh86,Thin Blue Line (because lets face it, aside from being cool as fuck, who doesnt need a cop to keep them in line in a all out drunk fest like this would be!) PunisherUK, Shadow, Sham666, Wrexless racer, Lanseril storm(to go against us ay any given time) xKslicex, ABw5959 and thats just starting off the night.

We would all find an establishment with darts and shufleboard when Davy, Bucky and Huey would finally walk in from there strip basketball session at the mens Y. Ofcourse it wouldnt be a party if there wasnt kareoke, and the wonderful vocal stylings of the one and only xWuchx who would have everyone in tears with his beautiful cover of Cher's "believe" then bring us all back up with some awesome journey covers.Not long after 'Believing' would sauntee in The GODS, Cereal killer chick, Gumber, Duality, Don jerry, Diva, H2phorexia, Spartan 117c and ofcourse YOURGOD78 who would be away but there then away but there,lol.

Arriving shortly there after by way of mystical flying dragons and unicorns would be rahzarATTACK and her puppy She-Ra, Cursed Eagle, LanaSue, UnexpectedError, Ar1zona420 and Thee Heefer cause thats how they roll yo! we would all be smokin and drinkin up a storm when Kill Ivan and CaliDoll would finally show up with Brohemoth (mr drillshafter) along with Phantom Silo, Y2Kevin and Raitchison. we would all still be waiting on Blazing Dragon when BanginNleavin would show with Pink Dino extremely plastered and ready to ride mechanical bulls, shortly there after Blazing would arrive, late due to a marijuana possesion ticket and compleatly coincidentaly Blazin Caucasion would arrive shorty there after by dog sled in the police uniform that Dragon just wimpered to about going to jail.

After a few pints the joke would set in and just in time too because yo know it aint no party without Stroke deisel and Anfone, which somehow arrived together even though there 8 billion miles apart and never met, thats there story to tell though. Maha, Pumpo and Rigid would arrive high as kites on some weird hollywood cocktail speaking of Jack thompsons cyborg cousin and the electric light parade at disneyland. Finally my home gurl XxFireFli would show up with her beautiful new child and set the mood to "awwwwwwwwwww" mode for the arrival of the one and only, Zamees! who would promptly start challenging everyone to golden tee 96 and swear he wasnt on LSD, AGAIN!. Rounding of the night would be one giant game of strip pint snorkling and shuffle board showdown where the loser has to lay across the table while bucky (face it he'll win everytime) launched pucks into their groin area's.

I cant forget about my newer friends as well, Evil Mermaid would show up and set the room off with her impressions of midget acrobats and Stupidtendo would arrive with his accoustic guitar singing Slipknot covers to the tune of the white album just for kicks, EleventhX would be mooching free drinks from everyone (tha flirt,lol) And ya know AQpotato would be rawkin the hardest nipples ever!.

I think we could all call it a night around 6am so some could get back to their loved ones, some of which would be introduced that night and hotel bound in the morning and the newest GTP romance, There would be no DUI's because Thin Blue Line would have stolen all our keys and all our hangovers would be magically cured by Davy and his miracal Elixer. That wold be one hell of a night, if i forgot you, no i didnt you were there I was just too drunk too remember and so were you, remember?


Movie Quote of the day From Terror Firmer, A Llyod Kaufman classic:

Jacob Gelman: Do you want some chocolate? I didn't think so. I eat this stuff all the time. White chocolate, dark chocolate. Of course I eat dark chocolate with meat and white chocolate with fish.

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Maha's quick thought:

The best fucking line in this post: jimjo wrote, "if i forgot you, no i didnt you were there I was just too drunk too remember and so were you, remember? " Holy hell... I was laughing my ass off!!! The best I've seen in a long time dude. I was ROLLING!

10 Years from now...

 

 

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10 Years from now... - 04/14/08

via DILLIGAF REX Rss Blog on 4/14/08

Where do I see me self in 10 years? Knowing me? Still working, still playing games. Still without a family. I'm getting to bloody old to start a fmaily of me own, but me brother has two in his litter and those are enough for me, PLUS, they have the added bonus of carrying on the family name, so that's a burdon off of me back too! But that's how "I see" me self in 10 years. i could be completely wrong, except the gaming of course. I'll be buried with  a system of some sort or the o

 

 

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Buckshot Managed to Drink Irish Style

 

 

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How Buckshot Managed to Drink Irish Style...with BuckshotGeorge!!! - 04/17/08

via BuckshotGeorge Rss Blog on 4/17/08

I think if there's a few things that can be guaranteed on a night out with Bucky, it's that you will laugh, enjoy yourself, and probably end up in the most random of places, with the most random of people. My night out in Belfast was no exception..... A lot of people on my course are older than me. But my mate Andy aka Elvis, is the same age. So we hang out together more than most. A couple of pre-flight pints at Newcastle airport made for an easy journey over the water. A couple more pints a

 

 

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Deconstructing Davy...with BuckshotGeorge!!! - 04/18/08

 

 

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Deconstructing Davy...with BuckshotGeorge!!! - 04/18/08

via BuckshotGeorge Rss Blog on 4/18/08

Oh, this should be fun. After stopping by Davy's blog, I finally got a little inspiration...I've been jotting little ideas down for other people for ages, and just couldn't get anything sorted. But now I have a starting block, and I'm going to see where this is going to go.......it's totally made up, if I manage to hit any truth, it's just good fortune... Please bear in mind I am so ill right now, and should be sleeping. Some things are more important! "Deconstructing Davy" by Bu

 

 

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deconstructing buckshotgeorge - 04/19/08

 

 

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deconstructing buckshotgeorge - 04/19/08

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DECONSTRUCTING BUCKY.  We will start for some praise for Bucky's blogs:  'A triffically good read'. Davy Rocket (No relation)  'A mantelpiece' WcT Huey ('He probably means masterpiece' Ed.)  'Triffic' Wild Cookie.  'A finely-wrought work, compassionate, moving and very funny' Ravy Docket (still no relation).  'Sorry, masterpiece' WcT Huey.  Its trifficly triffic. KingoftheRain.

 

 

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GTP Scottish Weebl

Xbox Live - GamertagPics Scottish Weebl Profile

Hi everyone. This is Scottish Weebl. I ran across him today on GTP. I love that head gear he's wearing, said he made it himself. I love to see gamers get super creative. Makes me feel good to see how passionate other people are about video gaming.
I swear we're not just a bunch of nerds!!! lmao

He's also got one of the most retarded videos I've seen thus far embedded into this gamercard profile. It's really funny, but only about the first 5 times you listen to it. lmao Now it drives me nuts!!!

That is all. :)
This guy is from Scottland... OOOh He doesn't have very many friends on his list though. I'm starting to wonder if he's not a little antisocial? Just kidding!

Bluebear

This is a really nice friend I've made on GTP. Were currently working on a few things on our sites....I'm having some serious issues with my FTP server. Let's see if this actually posts. :)

he said:
"well im really getting deeper into my intro, and its coning along great but its not really outstanding yet. im missing something, which im hoping that the last 2 pages i create are whats missing. im not so sure what it is but maybe if i start doing those 2 now i wont get to the first 2 pages. either that or i may divide all my pages up and just have a ton of pages but thats just too much to do. either way ive got like 130 days before i get my chance at intro wars so hopefully i find that happy medium by then."

Xero Kryptonyte

Now this guy is a real potty mouth. No matter how many times I tell him I'm married he continues to talk dirty.... I love it! lmao He's got some great stuff up on his site. I haven't actually asked him yet, but I think he may have drawn a picture of batman and it's really nice.

Check out his picture...the picture of his "other half" is actually himself. I totally thought he was gay, but he set me straight. Not gay... just silly.

Some of the nasty things he's said to me. :) Some aren't really so nasty.....

"whas sup mama hit me up sometime wud luv to get to know u better and play wit
u..."

"and ur anus must be very interesting..wud luv the opportunity to check it out"

"ohhh like u wouldn believe luv..but u know u luv it..and want it..."

I bet your wondering what the hell we were talking about. lol I think I started the anus conversation by telling him he had a weak stomach. Ah well...

This is one of his blogs on GTP.

HALO IS LIFE Posted on: 09-06-2005 View
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I consider Halo to be like the bible...it is also like everyday life , for example: if u happen to meet up with someone who really
pisses you off ...dont you just want to walk up behind him and ass-a-nate
him...yes i said ass-a-nate...just give him a good whack in the back of the
head with your smg...orrr if you see this really smoking hot kool aid(for
the slow ones that would be a female)...you just have the sudden urge to
just go up to her ...get up really close and throw something sticky on
her....dont get me started on t-bagging...well thas my two cents

~by XeRoKrYpToNyTe

GTP Tells Us Ciarhda Is Hot!

Yes ladies and gentlmen, GamertagPics (GTP) has a function on their website that allows other fellow gamers to tell you how hot you are. What a nifty TOOL. The only reason I’m even mentioning this today is because one of my good friends on GTP has been voted in the Top 5. In fact I’m sure he’s been voted in the Top 5 on many occasions and so have I in fact…..yes, even me. Stop looking at me like that!

Now I'm not going to go on a never ending rant about how horrible it is and what a waste of time those votes are because I never really thought anything much about it until today. I guess I decided to ride my friend about it a little and I decided I’d share this rib with you all. Yes... I'm teasing Ciardha cause GTP people say he's, "SUCH A HOTTIE!"

I joined GTP a long time ago, but never really used the site. I just wasn’t interested in joining a bunch of Xbox Live gamers in a hot competition, but I’ve recently decided to give it another go. I don’t really like the blog features, but some creative people have made really good use of them. They can add video, sound and pics so they’re pretty cool, but not for me.

The friends feature is really nice though. It’s how I’ve made so many friends so very quickly….It’s how I met Ciardha. Now, he’s a really cool guy and I’ve had many great conversations with him. He probably found out more about my life in 2 days than most of the people I hang out with regularly and he never once thought I was boring which makes him even cooler in my book that and he has the cutest little bunny picture!!!

Here are a few of the inspirational words he’s given me:

Regarding my recent issues with sharing my xbox….

“lol, everybody needs to vent to someone. besides if ya complain
to your husband he can smack ya with a controller, im 1000's of mi. away so you can say whatever ya want”

Talking about
“Marriage In A Video Gamers World”…

“lol, another great blog. you should have your own newspaper
column. if ya have a baby ill have to send ya a little master chief outfit
for it. so did you stay in bed this weekend and have your husband make you breakfast?”

Again, serious issues with sharing
and “Gaming Vs Wedded Bliss”…

“lol, turning over a new leaf. did he read your blog? mr. mrs.
smith was a good movie. you guys could probably have been in it.”

Regarding the time when I literally threw my Xbox controller
at my husband…

“lol, gotta play with your group, everyone yelling and smacking
each other. that should be the next tv reality show. you all probably have xbox controller impressions indented in your foreheads from smacking each other”

There is so much more to share, but I’m afraid it will take pages to explain. And yes, the xbox controller is very much indented into our foreheads… I should really take a picture! Thanks for always being there for me Ciarhda and why the hell is your name Ciarhda anyhow?

Oh and one last thing.... Has anyone told you how hot you are? hahahaha, now I'm ready to print this for my husband! *drums please* AND girls, don't get any ideas either! This one's married too! I mean hello! Only married guys have cute little bunny pictures. *snicker*

Video Gaming Granny

I think I’ve just discovered the Brood Blogs destiny. Not only to chronicle our adventures on Xbox Live and beyond, but others as well! I was reading Chaosmans blog, I’ve never even spoken to the guy actually, and came across a short article he wrote on this lovely gaming granny.

Naturally I had to check the site out for myself. This guys blog on his grandmother has got to be one of the most endearing things I’ve seen ever! She’s just celebrated her 70th birthday…just check out her birthday cake. It’s hilarious!

You have to check his site out on Old Grandma Harcore, a simple blog site with quite the following. You can also check her story out on an MTV Clip they've just posted. Be patient, it's worth the couple of clips before hers.

Discussion: A Gaming Granny